Yesterday morning I woke up around 4:30 hearing this voice in my head that said, “Randy, go watch the sunrise.” Well, I usually get up around five and sometimes I sleep to six on the weekend if I’m tired so I just rolled over and went back to sleep. At a little after five o’clock I was ready to get up. Following my regular routine, I stumble to kitchen to feed the fish and then turned around half dazed and walked down the hall to feed the fish in the room I’m in now. In the back of my mind I’m still hearing this little voice saying go watch the sunrise. Well, I glance out the window and it was terribly overcast and I didn’t see how there can possible be any sunrise, but I decided I would go after I have my coffee. Besides, at this point it’s still almost an hour before the sun will be up anyway, and in the past I have driven to my favorite spot and seen some pretty spectacular sunrises. With the way the little voice in my mind was chattering away, surely it is going to be some kind of deeply spiritual experience this morning.
Well, I get there and sunrise time comes and goes, but I see no sun. I look to the sky and I think surely there must be some reason I felt drawn to come. What is it that I am suppose to witness this morning?
Before I know it over an hour has passed and I’m still waiting to have some great revelation. While nothing has happened, I do find myself feeling a greater peace of mind than I have had in quite sometime. I feel almost intoxicated as I stand there looking at everything around me. I could tell I was having one of those moments where you commune with nature and you feel really connected to everything around you. You know what I’m talking about, that exhilarated feeling you get when you realize how wonderful it is to be alive. I get that feeling sometimes in the garden. You know, we were designed by our creator (who ever you choose that to be) to feel that wonderful awareness all the time. We get so caught up in the day to day activities we don’t take enough time to find that in ourselves. Your five senses can absorb all aspects of your environment, but only your soul can feel what I experienced yesterday. That being realized I was ready to return home, even though my precious sun, that I have missed so very much never decided to appear to me. The sky seemed to be getting ever darker and I knew rain couldn’t be far behind.
I was just getting into my truck to leave and I heard that little voice again. This time it seemed to whisper only my name. I glanced back over my shoulder and watched as the heavy dark clouds separated. This is what I saw, the clouds were filled with so much light their edges looked like pure gold. Call me crazy if you want, but somehow I felt that moment was created just for me.
When I got home I had another surprise waiting for me. Look! Something besides a town wren was eating at the feeders. This is not the best picture, but it was taken thru a dirty window from fifty feet away.
The cardinal drew me outside and I while I was there I started piddling in the yard. It’s wasn’t too long before Jamie joined me and we got a lot of things transplanted, removed and cleaned up before the rain came in for the day. All in all, yesterday was a good day.